Okay, I have been doing a lot of thinking about all sorts of things, but first about what I talked about yesterday. Nick what you said I think is right. It may not necessarily always be fakeness so much as people just really don't have a true relationship with Jesus. And whats so sad is God wants us to walk with Him so intimately, He wants to be with us more than we want Him. We are supposed to walk in tremendous power, but because that intimate fellowship isn't there God can't release as much into our lives. There is so much more out there, more than what we have ever experienced, more than what we know now. One thing thats hard for me to remember sometimes is that God loves us and always will, I mean yeah I "know" that but just to know that nothing I do can make him love me more or less. I guess I still sometimes try to do "good works" to get God to love me more and if I mess up than God is mad at me. I have been reading an AMAZING book called "Capitivating", I definitely recommend for all the girls out there, actually it would probably even be good for guys to read it. It has helped me soooo much. I'll probably be adding more tonight, but I have to go eat my brownies now....